Why do I love him? Because he is in there right now with my little tornado-two-year old, listening to all of her drama, probably rocking her-to sleep. Because even though my potato soup was HORRID ( I used a can/mix)-he ate the whole bowl with just a little eyebrow look. He learned a while back not to comment, unless comment very HAPPY! He puts up with the craziness. He's busy too, too busy; but I don't love him less. I don't know how. Sometimes I want to sneak away with him, like a rebellious teenager sneaking off to do some forbidden thing. Then I remember the children.
My mind drifts off-motherly thoughts. Did big T do his homework? Was little T scared tonight when Daddy put him to bed? I forgot to chase off the shadows and pray over him. Is tiny T still breathing all tucked in my big comfy bed? And the Princess, I didn't kiss her goodnight. This was a strange night, I just got so stressed. And there Matt was to take over-even though Tennis is on, and he worked all day. ( and night). Yeah, I guess I'm pretty much gonna love him forever.
I have to move the tiny teddy, the salt which was fairy dust, the stick 'lightsabers' , and whatever-that-is and stamp a card now. It's the hour before midnight-and the only time when I get any stamping done. This makes me a terrible blogger. But, for now, my life is all about family. I had enough time focusing on my self, didn't I? This is my dream come true....although, a little stamping reminds me of myself again-and how I wished for this day. "Some day I will have a perfectly clean and organized house-and no one here to 'discover' what I keep in my cabinets." It takes a 2 year old to get you thinking about life innocently again. I try to say less 'put that back in mommy's purse', and 'that was my best lipstick' and a little more 'You funny girl, look how pretty you are!'. I love my kids. I love my hubby. I love my life. I can only thank God for all that I have, because I'm pretty sure I don't deserve it. Thanks God. I hope I do something good with all of it.
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You are right honey....how well I remember our many walks and talks (well..you did most of the talking!!smile)and "Who" was your favorite subject...MATT!! and what did you want to "be" when you grew up...a MOMMY!!....Your DREAM has come true!! What a wonderful BLESSED life!!! I sure love that Matt too...he makes a great husband!....and what a BLESSING all your little ones are to us...Love you all.
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